Quote: There's also something about actually DOING exercises, rather than just thinknig about them, that seems to shift something inside me, even if I approach the task with reluctance!
ME TOO!!! And I too often approach them with some resistance. But I'm learning that pushing through resistance is usually a very rewarding thing for me to do (thank you yoga class for this lesson). wonder
Yeow, Azure! Between you and Wonder I am getting a lesson LOUD and CLEAR! I told you that I dread reading these threads where people are really doing the heart (hard) work of self-transformation......by the book.
So, assuming I really get it together...which book do you recommend I tackle first? Journey from heartbreak to...? or the MB book? Both sound good.
BTW, I applaud and admire you for doing the hard work.
Your posts meant A LOT as I am having a down day. Sigh. Shaky on the old self-esteem today.
Had a nice long talk with MIL yesterday. We haven't talked since BIL was missing. She sent a nice b-day card and said she misses getting together, so I called her ysterday. We are going to get together at the end of next month, due to individual trips. She told me all about BIL's memorial service--the one I wasn't invited to by H. It sounded very beautiful, and I'm glad. Nonetheless, it brings back the wound of rejection.
To top it off, the mediator called today. Says the further D papers I need to sign are in his office. Truthfully, I was wondering why H hadn't sent them back to me as he was supposed to, and I suppose some stray hopefulness crept in, that he was putting it off for some reason, couldn't bring himself to do the final thing. But, no, the mediator's been out of town for a week, so they've probably just been sitting there awaiting my signature. Feels like another kick in the gut...
But as we know, these kicks in the gut are yet another opportunity to address our unhealed wounds of the past! Right? Right!
Boy, am I having to reach deep within myself to find reserves of strength. This is freaking HARD sometimes. Grrr.
Quote: But as we know, these kicks in the gut are yet another opportunity to address our unhealed wounds of the past! Right? Right!
RIGHT!!!!!!!!!! We are with you all the way, Sweetie!!!! ((((((AZURE))))))
Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.... (thoreau)
A dear friend of mine has a vision of me as an older woman helping younger women deal with pain like this. He didn't mention if the vision included my H, but oh well, I'm sure he's right on the first part. What doesn't kill us helps us to grow, and to give back (eventually....oh boy, do I owe karma points for all the hours my friends have given to hearing me drone on and on and on ).
Glad you are able to talk with your MIL, despite the pain. Mine is definitely working to stay in contact.
Quote: But as we know, these kicks in the gut are yet another opportunity to address our unhealed wounds of the past! Right? Right!
I think you do this better than 99% of us do. I believe it's time to award another blue ribbon to you... because it takes a heck of a lot of maturity and wisdom to see this for what it appears to be.
Now, what are you doing on the self-nurturing front?
A big hug coming your way!
Bets
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Azure, I lost track of you since your old thread. Sorry I missed your birthday. A late Happy Birthday Hug to You.
You have been down a hard road. But you are strong and you will survive.
I have been gone on vacation for the last two weeks. I drove all the way out to Michigan and then all the way to San Diego to deliver my son's car to him and then all the way back to Minnesota. That was a lot of driving. I did get to stop and see Rae Jean in Utah. She made a BBQ for me. She is really sweet.
So keep up the good work. Read, exercise, and keep up the PMA.
Ron
My new goal #1. Find happiness and hold onto it. Forget everything else. It doesn't matter. (Happiness helpers: Respect, Friendship, Humor, Music, Passionate Sex)
Hey Azure ~ I am thinking of you too....(((((AZURE)))))
Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.... (thoreau)
Azure, Do you realize that it has been a week since you have posted to your own thread? What is the problem? Let us help. Ron
My new goal #1. Find happiness and hold onto it. Forget everything else. It doesn't matter. (Happiness helpers: Respect, Friendship, Humor, Music, Passionate Sex)
