Hey lost: I use imagery of my W when I fantasize and mb. She really is the only one that I want. I sometimes have to go WAY back and imagine some of our first encounters, which were quite sexy. As for the negativity, I just try to imagine her having some sort of epiphany, and becoming the sexual goddess I have always hoped she would become.
Of course, afterwards, the harsh light or reality intrudes, but at least I enjoyed the fantasy while I could.
