You know, sometimes I just find my H to be very unappealing. He called me and asked me to fess up about what was going on tonight, so I did. He did not like the babysitting arrangements I have made and was worried for D2's safety. Fair enough, right, he's her father.
HOWEVER, I set up a date for us last month and he didn't like those arrangements either! And to top it all off, he said "I don't understand why you would choose xyz as a sitter when abc could do it." I said, "H!!!!!!! I tried to get abc last month but you said you feared for D2's safety, remember? You said you did not feel comfortable with this arrangement and I had to cancel the whole evening." He said, "Oh yeah, I forgot. Well I have changed my mind and they are okay and will do fine."
GRRRRR
This is how he is. He is perpetually afraid and negative until a specified amount of time has elapsed and then he's fine with whatever idea I come up with. This is not an SSM related rant, it is just a general "my H is a turd" rant.
I want time alone with him and I feel like I am foiled at every turn! We have not had a date since my birthday in mid-May. Even that was just us staying at home, he cooked dinner and his sister watched our girls for maybe two hours.
I mean, I am their MOTHER. Does he really think I would do anything or arrange anything that would put these precious children in jeopardy? I have given up my entire life and identity for them!
But rather than have it degenerate into an argument I just said that I had to get off the phone and I would email him later. I am frustrated with his general personality which seems to say this to me:
"I want to be with you, but I will not make any effort to achieve that. Furthermore, I will foil any attempts that YOU make in arranging this. But you are not to get the impression that I don't care about this."
Thanks for reading this vent and sorry for the tears of boredom, lol.
