HP asked: Anyone else have a spouse that would freak to know that the intimate details of their private life are now not so private? ____________________
Yep, mine did. She has come here and read all I've posted (still does, I guess). I've heard all about it and have seen the printed version of my posts. (Just for reference, you see.)
The comment I remember most was, "How do I reload this thing?" After the first few days in traction, I taught myself to type with my toes and returned to the BB. "Hands free" has a whole new meaning to me now.
Mike - looking for a skin-like covering to wear over my body cast so I can look really buff
Last night, before we got into bed, I had a brief scare (I'm not kidding, I thought I heard someone in our closet, LOL! how funny does that sound..) and I ran to get H. He was in the other bathroom and was irritated that I was bothering him. He got out and said, What WAS it?! Could it not wait til I was done...sheesh you're acting like the kids! Cause I was banging on the door and saying, H! H! Are ya in there??
I had steeled myself and went to face the boogeyman in the closet, alone. There was of course nobody there, lol. Btw, I NEVER do stuff like this, but my ears were deceiving me I swear!
So he comes out and I looked sheepish and told him my story and he laughed and apologized for getting testy with me. He said over and over, Oh I'm sorry....I couldn't figure out what got into you! Then he lays back on the bed and I leaned over him and he starts kissing me pretty passionately. I enjoyed it and then went to get ready for bed, anticipating a similar reaction. Well that didn't happen for one reason or another.
But what I wanted to say was that I believe it was my vulnerability and 'softness' that he was reacting to. I am a very strong person and really only show emotion when it comes to either: my children, or being sexually rejected. Otherwise you'd be hard pressed to get me upset about something.
Someone advised me a while back (can't remember who) to try the softness and let him be my hero and see what happens. I said that I so seldom feel like this that I didn't think it would be a workable thing to try. Plus, it is not being genuine to who I really am.
BUT there is something that he is undoubtedly attracted to when I show that side of myself (Boogerman, where are you?? Come visit me every night!:)
The funny thing is that I have never been like this. It would not have been a quality that would have attracted him to me, because if anything I was even more independent and unafraid at 22 than I am now at 33. So maybe he is responding to it because it is something new?
Not sure, but I think I need to write a note on my hand to remember to show him the kinder and gentler Honey once in a while--he seems to dig her!
Quote: Someone advised me a while back (can't remember who) to try the softness and let him be my hero and see what happens. I said that I so seldom feel like this that I didn't think it would be a workable thing to try. Plus, it is not being genuine to who I really am.
This is kind of related to my feeling that my H likes me better when I'm ditzy. It also relates to what I meant when I said I looked more sexy than pretty. In my case, this really is something genetic, not any attitude I convey. Most of my features are very feminine. I have big eyes, full lips, large breasts, defined waistline, plenty of booty etc., but a few of my features like my height, shoulder breadth, nose and brow give me a tougher more masculine look. I know I'm attractive, but you would never cast me as the pretty princess or the cute cheerleader. I'm more the warrior queen type. This is why I have trouble trying to dress myself. For instance, I can't wear any sort of high-heeled boots because I think they make me look like a dominatrix. I can't imagine any guy having a fantasy about being my hero and coming to my rescue.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
1. I sometimes dread the thought of my W reading my posts. She'd probably say I whine too much, and then tell me that if I want a woman with a HD, go down I-70 and find honeypot. 2. HP - I think if I were your H, I'd freak out a bit if you started regularly hearing boogeymen in the closet. It's cute the first time, but not the 10th. That's when you start thinking about involuntary commitment.
I had a breast biopsy done on Wednesday and was really hoping the results would be back before the weekend but no such luck. I hate to be dealing with this at the end of a pregnancy; I want instead to be focused on my new babe. H found the lump last weekend while we were ML.
It is big enough that it has to come out regardless of whether it is benign or malignant. Say prayers for me, folks. I debated whether I should share something so personal on a bb, but in the end I am spillin my guts due to nerves. I will soon have 3 small children who are totally dependent on me so I really need to stay healthy.
On an upnote, H has stayed somewhat horny for me which is surprising. He also told me that my breasts were too pretty to have anything done to them. I hope he's feeling energetic tonight because I really feel the need to blow off some steam and take my mind off worrisome things!!
