Since I'm an emotional wreck, here is another groaner for you guys:
He keeps telling me he loves me, as a way to cheer me up. (I'm really not in the mood for his song and dance, btw.) I know that he loves me; I don't doubt that. What I DO doubt is whether there is sufficient sexual attraction on his side to keep me interested in this relationship for the rest of my friggin life.
And while I'm on the subject: How can a person feel romantic love for someone and not want to ML to them also? How is this romantic love? I am not being sarcastic either. I am wondering how it feels to feel romantic love with no desire. Wouldn't it feel like a best friend love? Or a mother and child love? You know...that deep and fierce love that is impossible to describe in words...is that what it feels like?
I'm not saying he has NO desire for me. It is just not very strong on his own and is very dependent on the level of desire that I am showing him. I don't get romantic love with a lack of sexual attraction. How is that different from platonic love? Isn't it just platonic love, only on a much stronger level?
I think the lack of sleep is contributing to my melancholy mood and inability to snap back into my normal feistiness. Although, NOP, I did feel a brief spark at your father's words to let him know I was here.
