Yes he was being a dick last night, HD. I actually considered writing that exact wording and edited myself.
I did sleep on the couch but not because I was mad at him, I really kept it together in spite of his oral diarrhea, but because I tried to go to sleep next to him and I couldn't. I could NOT tolerate his hands on me and being that close to him and hating him and horny for him all at the same time. AND just in case he ever reads this thread, horny for HIM not just horny you dumb freakin idiot SOB!! Hee hee, boy that feels good.
So I slept on the couch but every time I rolled over I would hear that conversation played over and over in my head. It was spooky and annoying.
I do realize I have some changes to make, based on what he told me, but damn where is the compassion for his wife?
Being pregnant is a very weird sensation. It is very hard to hold onto yourself when you do not feel like the same person. That feeling intensifies when you are not being treated as the same person but a "lesser" version of you.
I tried explaining to him last night how hard it is for an HD person to reach out and give affection to someone who rejects them. After all, if they reject THAT too, then you have two strikes against you. It is easier to sit back and let him come to me for affection.
NOP, You know, here is the weird thing. Once he is actually horny and wants sex, he is fine. We have no problems coming up with different positions..he does not worry about the baby..he is totally into it. It is getting him to this point which is damn near impossible these days. He crawls into bed with me totally turned off at the thought of ML to me. This is hard for me to hear, even though I know I shouldn't be taking it personally. He doesn't like to see my stomach protruding. (like I do!) He doesn't like it that I can't sprawl out all over him like I normally do. Blah blah, whaaaa whaaa from him.
I suppose I just need to accept that we have reached the end of him being a good sport with the preg. I knew it would come but it still stinks.
