Oh, WB, this was a 'spew water on my monitor' moment for sure!
I am no model of SSM-fixin', I will tell you that right now. I have more backslides than I care to admit. We have made tremendous progress, true, but I will admit right here that H made his progress FIRST. I am just now beginning to really change myself, 2 yrs later. I paid a lot of lip service to it but I really didn't do it. The funny thing is that now that I am really changing, he is settling back into his old ways. I don't know if it is due to the preg or some freaky dynamics we have going on so I will wait out the preg and postpartum period and hope for the best. H is very optimistic that the birth of the baby will be wonderful for us, sexually, so that is what I have to do..trust that this will happen, as it did after D2's birth.
He did say the other night that his desire for me pre-preg was a 10 and now it is a 7. So the pregnancy really does affect his desire; it is not in my imagination! AND, I'll bet you dollars to donuts that he was being generous with that 7 and trying to avoid a wife who cried rivers of tears because he said a 4. LOL Hey I know I am not the most rational person while pg, but I do try.
Now I am rambling. Thank you for the kind words but I don't think I really deserve them. After I am finished making my own changes maybe then I will soak it all in and say, Yeah I rock.
Right now, though, I feel as if I have PM-ed our sex life back to something resembling normal but I don't know that I really started my own journey until about a month ago.
