Hi folks! I will be out of the 'office' today, as I am a doula for my sister's birth. She is having her little one sometime today; I am very excited for her.
No change on the homefront, boring as usual. H was NOT talking about anything flirty when he said he couldn't say over the phone what his urgent matter was that he had to do--he was talking about finding another job! lol Oh I am so pathetic to even think that it could be related to me. We had a nice night together but he was quite uninterested in me sexually AGAIN. He said, Let's try to hook up tomorrow night. I replied, NO! I will be gone all day and probably all night at my first "job" as a doula and you are forgetting that. WHY you want to put sex off night after night, I will never know. At any rate, I will not be here and available to you.
After a few moments I realized what a beotch I was being and said, Listen I just wanted to thank you for even bringing it up. I realize that getting into bed with me must feel like a firestorm half the time with all the worry about what you are 'supposed' to do, etc. Thank you for at least acknowledging me in that way.
I hate that he knows he can keep putting it off and putting it off and I will always be there, spread eagle and willing. It sucks! Furthermore, HE hates this too. How sexy can it be? Where is the sense of chase or anticipation?
Oh well, I'm sick of thinking about it. I've got bigger fish to fry! Wish me luck on the birth of the baby; this is a little part time job I am trying to strike up and she is my first client.
