Jeffro, Yes they are my feelings and my true feelings at that, but that doesn't mean they are fit for me to vomit them out on H, kwim?
His preference is that I do these things to make the atmosphere more inviting for him to want sex. I have agreed to that. My preference is that he initiate sex more frequently and we have a regular sex life. He has agreed to that.
So we each have areas to work on and be concerned about. I don't think it's fair, at this point, to say that I don't want to do those things and he should just be overcome with desire simply because I am in the same room with him. I DO want him to feel that way but I have no right to dump it on him and make him feel guilty about it..or that he is less of a husband because he doesn't feel like that.
In other words, I needed to shut my yap and I didn't.
Btw, I don't mind doing any of the things that I listed. They are all part of my daily routine anyway. What I was trying to convey to H is that I want to be able to sashay across the room and have him be drooling. Well this is not a reasonable expectation. In fact, I don't remember a time when this ever happened (with him anyway!) so I am the whacko one.
onward I go..I have a positive feeling about tonight based on his earlier (and cryptic comment). Dear God, don't let me have misinterpreted this one. I don't think I am hormonally stable enough to handle his twisty words!
