Quote: Why was I so "in love" with a man who didn't want to have sex with me and didn't really treat me all that well otherwise?
If you substitute the word “am” in place of “I” and change the genders, this becomes a question I’ve asked myself many times. Now the question I have for you is this: is there an answer to a question like that?
This reminds me of when the C asked me, “Why do you want to ML with your W?” Is there really an answer? If I answer that it helps me to feel close to her, or connected to her, or loved by her, or important to her, or any of a thousand other answers, that just raises more questions. Why do I need sex to feel close to her? If she were to become physically unable to ML, would the feelings of being loved or feeling important to her vanish?
If you’ve come up with an answer, I would really love to hear it. These kinds of questions are what I’ve always thought of as “shrink questions” – they aren’t really answerable, they’re just designed to make you think.
