I feel a little calmer again this evening, due I'm sure to modern pharmaceuticals and the fact that I took the larger dosage of my AD's this AM...the lesson here is that I DO need to take them right now, even if I think I don't. It probably helps me be calmer also that I had a pleasant contact w/H as he left work...stopped by my office, gave me a warm hug and kiss (very bad for my resolve to stay detached) and asked when I would be getting home, saying he would like for us to get to spend a little bit of time together. Now that is a pleasant thought, even though I'm very leery of EVERY word he says anymore...still, that's 2 nights in a row he's suggested spending time together. That is a 180 on his part from how he used to be. We were talking about his workshop tomorrow, I did mention having bitten off the tip of my tongue to not ask him about who was going, and he said "well you don't need to"...when I asked if I didnt need to ask or to bite my tongue, he said "neither", so not quite sure what that means, he didnt really say much but it felt somewhat calming.
