thought I'd post an update here. Last night H seemed more cheerful....pretty pleasant actually. He complained of being tired. I was too, so we went to bed early...I turned off the bedside light, and H said "why did yo do that" ..told him I thought he was tired....he said "you must be"??????....I told him I was, but he might be surprised how quickly that can change, then he turned on his light and initiated ML...afterwards he asked why things were so different for me now, I told him I had found some of the books very helpful and had come to a new understanding and realization of some things about sex and relationships....he said "it's because you want to and for years you didnt"....don't know what that was supposed to mean, so I ignored it and said "sometimes I just have to have you anymore"...he didnt complain at all about that. We both slept like babies, I could have slept all morning too. This morning I hugged and kissed him (a couple times) as he was shaving....he was kind of "enough already"...told him I was sorry to bug him, he said "its just that you're kind of clingy in the morning sometimes"....I told him "no, I'm not, I just can't resist you, but I'm not clinging, I'm taking my hands off right now, see?" he said "oh, OK," and as he was leaving the room turned his head towards me and said "I love you"....the whole exchange was cheerful and happy, not "irritable"...different in emotional tone from other mornings, (yesterday morning he threw a temper tantrum when the lid fell into the cat food bin)....up down, up down, up down goes the roller coaster.
this is his day in the office where OW is.... I still hate that; but, he always complains about Tuesdays as well, so now that I think about it, it sure isnt like he's thrilled to be here to have the chance to see her...of course he complains about the long hours, office staff, etc., not about her, but....
He was talking last night that maybe he needed to just start sending out more resumes???????

Honestly, he is a really good looking guy who turns me on and I do just want to grab him and hang on sometimes!!!!

been around awhile!