ALL RIGHT MS PAMILA!!!!!! that is what I needed to hear...plus if you want to fly down and use the 2x4 on me, that's ok, we could go get coffee or something after my whooping.... WHY, is what I can't understant, is it SO hard for me to keep my mouth shut when I KNOW just what you said....it will only piss him off (with a capital P, I might add), and he will look me in the eye and lie anyway, and I won't believe him anyway, so I will gain nothing and probably even lose ground, and I will look clingy and dependent -- and, if the door is really open, meaning that I meant what I said on vacation about loving him enough to let him go, it doesnt matter anyway, so WHY THE HECK IS IT SO HARD TO KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT? I guess that's one thing about myself I will never understand. Maybe I have some fantasy in the back of my mind that he will take me in his arms and say "oh darling, how could I have ever done that kind of a stupid thing, and I will never hurt you like that again". Yeah, right, as they say.
