such a busy day today I've not even had time to post, but want to before I go home for journaling as well as any thoughts. Last night was weird, again. H came home from work in a good mood. told me that his secretary who's leaving tearfully confided in him that she and a co-worker who left a year ago (one of H's best friends) had an affair....which I pretty much knew, H wasnt sure, we'd speculated, now it's confirmed. this gal divorced her H over the deal cause she thought the co-worker would leave his wife...duh, I could have called that one right...never in a million years.....and now she's crying about how it's ruined her life and she never wanted all this to happen, etc....The co-worker and his wife have moved clear out of town, although H suspects there is still some phone contact or was recently.....damn cell phone, no less....
So, H was telling me how he told her that we all have to accept responsibility for choices we make, whether they turn out the way we want them to or not, and that it was a choice she made. Darn, I hope he's starting to see that w/OW....
Anyway, he was kind of upset because his other "best friend/coworker resigned yesterday to take a new job.....but he was still in a good mood. My grandmother died Monday, her funeral is 2 hours away early Sat. afternoon, H and I both have to work Sat. Am, and Son has several back to school activities, we were discussing what to do, H was adamant that S would either need to stay with a friend or go with me to the funeral (H is not going, which does not please me but doesnt surprise me)....H said "we can hash this out later" and went on a 2.5 hour walk....when he got back he was in a TERRIBLE MOOD....this is the exact opposite of what usually happens, I don't know what to think. He did seem gentle and compassionate and concerned and said he would stay with S Saturday so I wouldnt have to hurry, and do his "work" on Sunday AM....I can't help but wonder if he met OW or they were on the cell....he was kind of irritable all night....still a little bit that way this morning....I just ignored him and stayed backed off.
I didnt hear from him by email, so at noon I emailed him, told him I was thinking of him and hoped he had a good day, that I was proud of him and loved him and was feeling mushy...he emailed back thanks, he always appreciated kind words (????) and that we would find some "hug time" tomorrow. Stopped by my office on the way home tonight, and seemed much more cheerful, gave me a hug and responded to ILY very warmly ( I have been cutting back on those this week)....As usual, I don't know what to think, I've been backed off this week because he's seemed moodier, no ML since monday but that's not unreasonable...so I'm getting ready to go home, and see what's going on. knock on wood. I just wish OW would get tired of waiting and move on....I still feel sure the list I found 2 weeks ago was for her or I would have heard by now, and the things on it are pretty much things I could check off. I also hope it makes her as mad as it would me to get a list like that. She does have a much more volatile temper than I do. so we shall see, I guess. I have to remind myself the most effective thing to concentrate on is drawing him back, not on her/them....cross your fingers and send any extra prayers my way if you all would. I'm heading home

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