Last night H was just livid, he was so grumpy and angry....I know he had a really rough day at work, but it was like there was something more underneath the surface....I just kind of let it go, tried to "act as if"....he even apologized for being such a grump at one point, I told him it was ok, I knew he'd had a rough day....
When he first got home, he went to get one of his special beers out of the fridge...there werent any cold ones, I'd promised in an email I'd stick one in there for him since I get home earlier, and I completely forgot. I said "oh, I'm sorry, I meant to and forgot, and put one in for him....H responded "thats ok, I'm used to lots of broken promises"....now that was an incredibly weird response in my opinion over there not being a bottle of beer in the fridge.
This morning H is still grumpy as all get out, but is pleasant to me...I don't know how to describe it...I'm sure he was on the phone w/OW this morning....I don't know how much of his grumpiness is related to her, but I'm guessing some, there's just more under the surface than work and not having a bottle of beer.
I was talking about making reservations for the fall mini-vacation, and he said he didnt think we should go, that it wasnt that he didnt want to but finances....I mentioned that we could have everything straightened out by then and set aside enough to pay for it....he said he still didn't know....I let it drop and just left for work, but I tell you what, I'm gonna go somewhere whether he goes or not...I've earned it from all this crap, if nothing else! I can't help but wonder if OW has something to do with his hesitancy....I feel like it's best to drop the subject right now so that he doesnt feel pressured, whatever, but I'm gonna go somewhere. Havent heard a word from him today.....
