I am making a huge effort to focus on my own goals even when I'm at home....I'm really working on sorting and organizing and redecorating the house, It's been let go and is kind of a mess after months of ignoring, plus S11 is one of the most un-neat people I've ever met. Yesterday afternoon, I worked on cleaning the porch and trimming overgrown shrubs, I worked until about 9 last night and just left H watching tv....he seemed content enough..... I did go over and talk for him for a few minutes at some point in the evening. I don't even remember what we talked about, but I do remember him saying "sex, sex, sex"....I said "what"...and he said "I was just teasing you".....thought that was weird....
We did ML Friday, Saturday and Sunday.....I would say either it was mutually initiated or H initiated....He said something about he couldnt believe this, it was so different (frequency) said "it's almost like when you first meet someone"....I said well, didn't you always want some hot woman after you most of the time? and he said....."well, yeah, I always thought so, it's one of those things you wish for and then you arent sure what to do".....then he made the comment "well, I don't need viagra and I'm 50 years old"??????????
I havent heard from him by email today, his schedule was off again this morning, and he seemed somewhat rushed and impatient....I just told him his lunch was on the counter and to have a good day and left...didnt make a special effort to kiss goodbye, or anything. Don't know if that's the way to handle it or not....
