I was thinking about H's infamous list yesterday, and it occured to me that all the things on the list would have applied to me/our R at one time, but they are pretty much the things I have been focusing my efforts on in the last what, 6 months. I feel a large amount of progress has been made in those areas.... I still feel the "list" is targeted to OW, and it really galls me to think of him addressing things that need to be improved for someone to be his "life partner" to her....after he told me it June in his great dramatic 10-day episode that he'd realized I was the one he loved and he couldnt trust her and blah, blah, blah, blah....it's like he's giving her another chance and another chance and anther chance....while I'm kind of out in the cold. I'm trying really hard to stay out of it and make it his drama, maybe that's what he means by appreciating the space I've been giving him....
Still, trying to look at it from her perspective, it would piss me off (can I say that here) to get a list like that from my married lover..... H has changed his "weekend work" schedule to Saturday mornings from Saturday afternoon, saying it conflicts less with family/church activities for us (true) but I wonder if it has something to do with sex between them????? Guess I'll have to make sure Fridays are flaming hot at home.
