Quote: I really, really wish that I could talk with h about this e-mail and use it as a springboard for a deeper understanding...sounds lame but I don't even know how to do that.
You realy realy CAN use the re-discovered email as a springboard for deeper understanding...it just may not come from a conversation WITH h directly relating to the email.
If I'm correct in my memory such discussions (bringing up the past, initiating r talks) haven't worked out to well in the past...to many assumptions, expectations, defensiveness etc.
You can instead gain an understanding of how what you did then didn't work and what you did that did work.
in other words...realize what "deeper understanding" you might possibly gain of the past, isn't going to effect at all the deeper connection you have already gained with h.
anyway I've got a midge here who wants me to go color and another one that needs to be picked up from kindergarten.