I don't post over here much (but I'm a faithful reader) because you seem to have such an amazing amount of insight as to what is really brewing under the surface. How lucky is your H to have such a great woman as his W?
I've been reading you for a really long time now. I've never found your posts to be whack worthy. I'm not going to start now. Even though it's been 18 months and that life is well behind you, I know from experience that there are seemingly inane triggers that bring those awful, insidious thoughts barging to the surface.
When they do? I'm usually extremely uncomfortable with them because they surprise the heck out of me.
What helped is the fact that my adopted mom (who also went through a very traumatic separation) told me that this lingering effect will last until it's good and ready to move on. Uh, summary? Complete forgiveness takes awhile.
So don't despair, dear. I think you've got a great handle on all this stuff. Somehow I can't visualize you being anything but successful in putting this behind you once and for all...
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Betsey 
