Today had a feeling CHL was at the house again. I know if I'm building a friendship and trust again that I need to be more comfortable with him being there when I'm not. It is an area I have decided to focus on.
I ran home at lunch and he is working on the rest of the tree that came down, cutting it up and burning it.
I asked why the rush? He said no rush just didn't get it done, it needs done, it is nice out and he needed the exercise. I later told him I felt he was just rushing to get the house listed. He said there are several reasons why he is doing it.
We discussed my trust issues. I apologized for not believing what he said the first time and said I will work on this problem area of mine. I said but if we are going to be friends I need to know I can trust you and that you will tell me things. I then asked what he needs from me to be friends, he said that I don't leave mean vm's or send mean e-mails that sometimes I go over the top.
I hadn't done any of that in a long time till this week and boy it is stuck in his memory.
I think we may be able to work the friendship out.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
