Today was a bit rough. I did expect it to be as when I am sitting at work is when it is the hardest to not contact CHL. I had sent him several e-mails the night I got the papers and he actually answered some of them last night.

Not all, but 2 or 3 I think. I responded to some of them and he e-mailed me either once or twice today.

I still think we will probably finish up everything without anything getting ugly. I don't believe either one of us wants that to happen.

I still have a lot of respect and feelings for the person I married and I hope he still feels something nice about me.

Had to run my lights out to the house today as this weekend when I went to drop them off it was locked. Then got call this afternoon that downrods on ceiling fans weren't long enough so had to run to Home Depot and then back to the house again. No one was there and it was locked again.

Not sure I like my dinning room or garage fixtures after all.

Hopefully when I see it again I will like them better. I was just peeking in the window at the dinning room fixture.

Really feel tired tonight. Not too productive.

But also feel calmer. Read this whole thread again and it reminded me of where I am headed and the work I am doing on myself. I let the emotions sidetrack me this weekend and today.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"