Been off the bb as came home and went to bed. Just felt so lousy. CHL was here when I got here but that will be another post.
I certainly didn't think you were reading those posts to snoop, I just meant I really am embarrassed by them. I am not sure his heart was ever in saving the marriage as I do feel he was pretty involved with J and not sure if you knew this, but he had an affair with her before he met me.
My H is a pretty nice guy in a lot of ways. Major conflict avoider, very shy, a geek, but with a great sense of humor.
If you had a question for him and posted it he would probably answer. He used to be great at giving people thoughts.
He also does still read the bb, I don't think every day or anything but if you dug up his last thread he might see it before it gets off of the first page.
No, you wouldn't want to read # 3 or even #250, take my word for it!
Yes, soooo much pain. I had no idea how I would ever be able to deal with it and there is still pain, but not as much. As Shiny said not the desperation that there was a few months ago.
I see a future for myself now. It isn't the one I had hoped to have, but it is there now!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Major conflict avoider, very shy, a geek, but with a great sense of humor. 
