My birthday is coming up in two weeks. I think I'm gonna try asking for what you asked for and see what happens. You gotta realize, we didn't ML on our wedding night. Also, she promised to ML when I graduated, so, she still owes me one. A hard chit to cash in I might add. I once read that you should allow a month of healing for every bad year. That's probably not really accurate, but it gives me something to look forward to. My MC says I'm doing the right things and that our R is improving. I'm saddened that your W is holding a grudge from way back, what was it, 20 years? That's an entire generation of time. Short of murder, nothing should still cause such bad feelings after that long. A year ago, when our R was at a low point, I demanded to know why she wouldn't ML. She said she always hated doing it with me, and that I was very unskilled. Boy, did that hurt. I remember it like it was yesterday. I was in the same bed with her in those days, and I remember a lot of good times. Anger and resentment tend to rewrite history. I'd love to improve my skills, but I don't get enough reps these days. The coach has benched me. And then she complains that I'm not skilled. Go figure .