Jamie - thanks for replying so quickly. Yes, I was given a small prescription for sleeping pills, but those are long gone. I may be in denial, but I don't want to seek help for depression as I'm not feeling depressed as much as angry, fear, and rejection. I am not feeling lethargic - if anything I am filled with too much adreneline. I am so torn up for the kids also. I came from a broken family and the last thing I ever wanted was for them to be scarred and bounced around like I was as a child. My soon 2bx doesn't follow this concept - she only knows she is in love and I should have made my revelations (like applying DB techniques) 6 months earlier. The amount of anger she has focused toward me is what is most confusing. Even when I was most devastated after confronting her with evidence of her affair, her response was pure anger at me. I expected remorse and someone begging for forgiveness and that wasn't even close.
Michele - Its an honor to have the author of all those books I've read reply in a day. I heard so often that the normal advice is not to jump into another relationship quickly (which I have no urge to do anyway). I'm confused as to whether I should be applying a 180 technique (be unavailable, date ...etc) for my own benefit. I can't even make up my mind as to whether I should try to salvage this as it appears so damn hopeless. Maybe I'm being impatient, but I'm at a loss of what things I could be doing that would get my self esteem back and take my mind off of this.
