Ok,
I feel it now. My EC isn't what it was Sunday. This sucks...why do I have to live like a leaky tire?

Anyway, it's my W's P this week and she has assured me that she won't have sex during that time. My feelings are at a spot where I don't really desire the idea of being with her. This is what happened a few weeks ago and it required me to have a big drawn out convo (which actually boosts the EC) before I could get in the mood. So what do I do?

Well, between that last paragraph and this one, my W came into my office and said she was feeling "blue" because of the heat and that August always seems to have this effect on her. We chatted for a bit and I suggested that we have some alone time in the bed tonight. She replied "that wouldn't be for me....oh, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say it that way...it's just that..." Me: "yah, I know it's your period, but I thought I could give you a nice massage instead of sex" W: "well, I'll do that for YOU if you want". M: "umm...ok". Crap, I hate this...my anxiety level is now at 3...up 2 points on my 1-10 scale.

This effort to ask her to bed really is for "me" and I should just accept her willingness. Afterall, it's my EC. If I wan't to boost it, then I need to initiate. I don't know...maybe a schedule is better.


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