I was feeling really feeling attracted to her yesterday and there was a really good vibe going on. W and I watched a movie until 11:00 (very late for her). When the movie was over, I said "I'm sure you want to go to sleep tonight and your completely off the hook, but I wanted to let you know that I was really 'digging' you today and would have loved to ML tonight." (that would be as crappy of an initiation as hers if it were my intention to initiate) . She replied with something like "that's nice" in a nice way.
So I went upstairs and posted etc while I let my W go to bed and she was reading for about 15 mins. So I went in and she told me that she was waiting for me before turning off the lights. My dog was sleeping on my side of the bed so I snuck into my W's side. It was hilarious because I have never been on that side of her in the bed. She started air-kissing in the direction that I'm usually at and saying "this is strange, I'm kissing but my H isn't there". She finally turned her head over and we started kissing and I started giving her gentle neck rubs and kisses. About 10 minutes in, she took her nightgown off (I was shocked) and I kept touching her...her skin was covered in goose-bumps. I was extremely aroused and she started playing with me. Next thing you know, we are in full swing. I was on top and was going for the vaginal O. Like I said before, it requires some athleticism. She was really enjoying it but she finally said that she didn't care if she O'd because though it was feeling really good to her and that she really just wanted to be with me. This time, I *knew* she was being very honest and this wasn't a mercy thing. Unless I my instinct was wrong, she wanted the closeness and connection but didn't really care for the O. Note that she had a big one a couple nights ago. There was a nice feeling of intimacy and "connection" boosting in both directions. We then laid on our sides with me spooning her and ML from that angle. I reached around and started massaging her clit. She said "that feels really good but I probably won't get *there*". So I used that hand to massage and scratch her back and neck and I asked "Is this better then?". She said "oh yah..that feels good". I continued for a bit before I stopped. Because of our birth control situation (or lack thereof), I only have 1 choice for me to O while being close to her and thats to have hold me while doing manual play. This way, we can kiss etc. Usually I have assist and while I do take matters into my own hands, she puts on an erotic display of touching herself etc. My thigh can feel her hand as she massages herself and whoa....it works.
Sorry for all the gory details. I'm just so buzzin' today. We've had great interaction this morning too. I think we both came out "winners" last night because we came together at "similar" levels. This is how its "supposed" to be. No ritual, no candles, no overt initiation...just an organic process of boosting each others feelings to a point where we get together.
I'm really feeling compelled to let go of the process now. I can just let her know that I won't be acting weird on Thurs if we are overdue for the midweek session etc. That I will no longer be expecting it or keeping score. This would be more of an exercise for me than her. I'm not sure. It's just starting to feel like the right move though my instincts have been wrong in the past.
Anywhere is walking distance if you have the time
-Steven Wright
