Hey KAW - thanks for your insight - I think that the push/pull thing is a typical pattern for alot of WAS. I too have felt that it would be better from me to jump off the rolercoaster and not go through the hurt again of her pushing me away after pulling me back in, and right now I believe that that is my plan. I will work on the house and me and my business and live life to the fullest and C can do what she wants. I have told her that I would be her friend and I will continue to be one as she needs one. If she reaches out to me for support or friendship I will be there to listen and support. However, she has not indicated that she wants to be my friend (altho she continues to say she wants us to stay friends) i.e. she does not do the things that a friend does.
Been working on arranging my furniture some and getting things in working order - got the Washer Dryer connected and did a load of clothes. Put in some under the counter lights in the kitchen. and finished putting together some base cabinets to use as an Island in the kitchen - gives me lots more under the counter space and I went from 3 drawers to 9 drawers. Got me a pantry but it might not be big enough so I think I will get me another one and also I want to get me one of those pot hangers that go over the kitchen island to hold my pots and pans. I think that would look nice.
Living room has taken shape fairely well but some of my behind the TV wires are packed in one of my many boxes and I can not finish till I find that box (yes I know that I should have marked the boxes with what was inside)