Hi Pamila, that's exactly right....and so weird...tuesday nite, H was up and down all night, in and out of the bedroom, over to his dresser, picking something up....putting something down....I saw the envelope the next morning, when he was oddly off schedule, as I was getting dressed, laying right on his dresser with a pen clipped on the back of it...I recognized the envelope as one I'd brought in with the mail the eve. before, caught my eye because it has a bright blue logo and return address...I thought maybe it was something "special" so picked it up, and found most of the back covered with talking points....I would guess there were 6/7 in all...I only read the 1st 2 and part of the 3rd. #1 said "compassion is key" #2 said "life partner must exhibit reciprocity" #3 said something about church, and I didnt get the rest because I didnt want to get caught snooping.....I noticed yesterday afternoon it wasnt on his dresser, then this morning, as I said, I saw it sticking out of the outside pocked of his brief case....... weird in my book....I cant figure out what the heck he's working up to here, but I cant comprehend that he would be ML so often or talking about the future if he was leaving...in fact, shortly after I found out about A, he wouldn't even commit to being around by christmas...I would ask (before I found DB) and he would just say he didnt know or not respond....now he talks about future plans unsolicited....
Thanks for the $condolences, we will be ok, tomorrow we meet w/banker and just re-finance our mortgage to take care of it, it isnt even that large an amount, actually, but just that we are broke right now so soon after D's college and wedding that we don't have discretionary funds to cover it. It was probably a very needed wake-up call for both of us, however.....
I don't know, does that note scribbling/up and down all night give you any ideas about what the heck's going on?
I've not had one single email from H today, which is very unusual, it's been months since I didn't get at least one....I decided to just leave the ball in his court, since always before I've sent him one if he didnt', and I did give him lunch notes 2 days in a row this week. I mean there's shameless pursuit and then there's idiotic pursuit, right?
