How are you? I'm ok. H is doing the same stuff. I was going along with the D, then we start talking, he hugs me and tells me he loves me, etc., we end up ML all week, then he says, "oh, i don't want you to think that this is going somewhere it's not. I still don't know what I want." Then he starts saying how he'll never be able to have female friends and comes up with this hypothetical situation that he should be able to go out with his friends male & female, married and single, and not have to invite me. He thinks that if I trusted him, I wouldn't care. I say it would be just plain RUDE (not me being jealous) to not invite me, then if it is something that I am not interested in, then I would say, "I am not interested, but have a great time!" I am so tired of this. I really don't think that I deserve to be treated this way, but yet, I continue to love him and want it to work out. What is wrong with me???
Is there something in DB that says we should put up with sh!t and do what they want b/c we want to stay M??? I feel like I am losing respect for myself b/c he twists everything around to me and blames everything on my "insecurities." I KNOW I am a great catch, and I just don't think he appreciates me.
He can be SO rude when he is mad. I don't think I ever really divulged how mean he has been when I "push his buttons."
