Hi Jim, Thanks for your response! Pam told me you apologized for the IM'ing stuff and I appreciate that. But, if you seriously have some good threads to point out to me, feel free! I'm always looking for some new "adventures," etc.
Things have been going pretty well w/h and me. He was sick all last week, so I didn't have any expectations. (I know-I should never have expectations, but at least when he is sick I know why he isn't doing this or that.) We are doing separate stuff this week M-W, and then Sat. he is going out with the guys.
Oh, last week our power was off and he went to a bar to have a beer and wait for me to meet him for din. When I got there, one of the waitresses was sitting with him, OR, he sat with her when he got there. At first, I had a hard time w/it...he then introduced us, but he didn't know her name and just said, "she's one of the regular servers who waits on us." So, we chit chatted a little, then she went to work thereby waiting on us. She seemed a little chummy w/him, but I've seen her before and know that she is friendly in general. Then he gave her a big tip and I said, "How much are you giving her?!?" So, I bit my tongue and didn't say anything else. The OLD me would have grilled him and been REALLY REALLY jealous, but the new me was just somewhat j. I found myself comparing myself to her and feeling somewhat insecure but...
I still have periods of sadness thinking of how H used to give me lots of WOA and cards and ecards and stuff. It makes me cry when I come across an old email or card he gave me. I really want that from him, but I know bi!ching does NOT work. I have decided that he has just been rebelling against me and that's why he did what he did. (B/c that was my worst fear). And, that he doesn't give me WOA b/c I have asked for them so much. I thought he was going to work on that...well, I'm sure that he is...in his own time.
So, I'm trying to live w/o the WOA. He does say ILY first on occasion, but it's usually me who says it first. I was wondering if I should back off due to the teeter-totter thing.
I started a "game" with him. He told me he was willing to do this-we each take a little piece of paper and write, "Sometime this month..." and fill in the rest of the sentence. Well, neither of us brought it up. Yesterday I gave him the paper with the sentence started on it, but he didn't leave it anywhere. What if I have to prod? If so, I was trying to think of a way to ask for it w/o prodding like saying jubilantly and NOT bi!chily (new word?), "I've got my card for you! Where's yours?!?" Or something like that. Any ideas?
Came to the lib to job-hunt, but it turns out one puter has word and the others have the internet, but no puters have both, so I can't copy and paste my resume!
