Hi All,
After work I went home and H was mowing part of the lawn. He came up to the house covered in sweat and kinda cranky. (The riding mower is broken, so we've been mowing with a push mower). He told me that he wasn't biking tomorrow w/the club b/c he has to mow the rest of the yard and he's getting truck parts in. I told him that I would mow the rest right then, and he went into the house. I finished mowing++(exercise). I was upset at first-one for him being snappish and two b/c that meant we wouldn't be together Thur, Fri, or Sat. But, I worked it out pushing that dam thing. I was thinking "oh, that's it...the honeymoon is over, now he thinks he can talk to me any way he wants. Now he is going back to spending all this time apart, yadda, yadda. I decided that I had to cheer up and/or act as if I was cheery, or I would get nowhere with him. So I did! +++ I offered to cook din., but he didn't want what we had so he suggested pizza. I said ok.

I asked if he wanted to go somewhere. He looked bummed out. I asked what was wrong and he said that his back was hurting him. (He shared his feewing! ++) I said staying in was fine, and he wanted to watch the "family guy" marathon, so we just hung out. Later he told me that he would bike (oh, he said TY for mowing too) Thursday since we would have no time together for the next few days and that his truck could wait!!! +++++

I left him a note on the bathroom mirror for him to find this morn. He liked it-he gave me an extra hug and kiss this morn when he said good-bye. (I'm so sweet and thoughtful and romantic+++)

I had some insight this morn on myself.+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ I get so wrapped up in him and his feelings and how he is treating me b/c of him and his feelings, etc., etc., etc.! (I know I need to read that CHAPTER-Do not take anything personally). But, then I asked myself how I would take care of myself and reminded myself that 1. I can go w/o ML for a while 2. It's not personal (as in give up feeling "hurt" or like I'm not getting my "needs" met.) 3. It's ok if we spend some time apart-remember, we just did it for 5 1/2 weeks!! 4. He loves me...5. I love me (well kinda) -ya know, essentially that I am ok and I'll be ok.

So, Pam, the positives are inter-mixed in there!
ttys,
karen