My update: We have been at a kind of sexual standstill lately as I address the enthusiasm issue. H has been willing and cooperative in bed which is nice, but it still lacks something for me. I am having a hard time expressing what it is I feel I need, but it goes along the lines of wanting to see him add new ideas and be more open. The other day he told me that he feels like a trained puppy and I said to him that he chooses to feel that way. I am glad that he was able to verbalize what is going on inside for him, but if I want things to change I know I have to stay with this. Something must be getting through because last nite he jumped into the bathtub with me, and even though we acted like two kids playing with bubbles rather than erotic lovers, it was fun and intimate. We are going away on Wed with the kids and other family so I think for now I will let up on things , take the pressure off and escape a bit. Journey
