You are right about the more of the same. Especially when he is out. I am not exagerating when I say that I have full blown panic attacks. Sweating, heart beating rapidly, tremmors the whole deal. And more often than not I find myself calling him. Even at the time I know it is wrong but I am so scared. That is the honest truth.
I see what you say about mystery. I will start today, I am watching for that chance to arise. I have a perfect chance to 180 because he has band practice. I WILL NOT CALL. And maybe I will even go to bed before he comes home. That will shock him for sure.
H's LL I am pretty sure is Touch followed closely by me being able to listen and understand him. (Can't remember which one that one is, I need to llok it up again)
So my one and only goal for today just to get through is not to call him when he is out and to encourage him to have a good time (for real and not fake)this goes against everything in me but I remember that Michelle says that the best 180's feel like that sometimes! I am trying.
