Journal... Started back with Bible reading yesterday and with prayer, hope that this helps my ever low MA. Wish it was PMA. I need to start thinking about what works what does not and keep up DBing in that way. It is so asy to get back into bad habits. That has not happened yet, (No crying or breakdowns, no R talk) but I am always aware that it could. So I will kick it in A#@ before it starts. I have been thinking that my whole problem is perspective. If someone else was in my marriage that they would see so much more good than bad. Yet I focus on what "might" happen if he stays out late or runs into OW. This is smething that I must deal with and purge. Much prayer in that direction is needed. That part is still so raw. And much action is needed too (on my part).
What I know works: Being light and not taking things to seriously.
Not feeling sorry for myself or constantly having something wrong with me.
Being Physically active.
Giving him time to be with his buds and not constantly having problems with everytime he goes some place.
Need some 180's...not sure where to start.
Well Except "Get A Life."
Need to work on that. Would be great if I could make some new friends. (H has many new friends through his job, and band and it has helped him personally.
