I have read DR at the beginning of all this but I feel like I need to dig in again. I think we were sepperated about 2 and 1/2 months. But that was our second sepperation in the year that all this has been going on. I just do not know how to trust again. I am acting as if most of the time except last night. I am trying so hard to keep it in. I just keep waiting for the other shoe to fall if you know what I mean. Thanks so much for the words of encouragement. I wish I could figure out how to link my threads from newcomers but they are not "sticking".
I want so bad for this to work, our lives are so hectic and with the kids the good times are great but I want him to know my changes are permanent while at the same time inside I don't think I have changed enough. how do I make my outward actions real in my heart?
