Well I didn't make it through the day yesterday without sending an email. Not a major crazymaking one, I did edit it a few times. But still not happy that I sent it. I also sent a short, he always sends short e-mails and I think I heard one time keep it short, just said I apologize, I personalized and had no reason to do so.
Reminder for me, when I am stressed and then sick on top of it, Don't DO Anything!
I feel better today, still a bit dizzy but nothing like yesterday afternoon.
After all the girlfriend talk I realized with a lot of people I am in contact with I almost always initiate contact. Partially I think that is just me though.
But yesterday I got an e-mail from Trish, which was really nice and then this morning I had one from Zoo!
This doesn't quit fit into the girlfriend category but a long time male friend also called last night to talk. It is funny we have known each other for years, and don't talk too often but if one of us is struggling we usually get in contact with the other. He is struggling with several issues right now and I wish he would read DR but I know he won't. Especially as he feels he needs to act as if nothing wrong and just move forward, and if he does that truly puts the problems behind him that might work. So far he has not dealt with things in a good way.
Feeling much calmer this morning. One of my new Goals!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
