So tonight I still feel chatty but wasn't in the mood to go anywhere as I wanted to get that horse stuff in one place so I can get a list of it and start trying to figure prices on it.
But there is just a feeling of winding down and contentment now.
The kitties and the shelties had dinner couple hours ago, the kids have just now had a run outside, taken their vitamins and got their nighttime snack of yogurt, tonight was lemon flavored, I believe since they finished it off it is vanilla tomorrow night.
Now if I just knew what to do for poor little B's stuffy nose we would all be great!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
You are doing great and just a little encouragement to help pick you up along your journey.
Contentment is a wonderful feeling and I'm not sure I used to experience much of it. I think I was always looking for something or missing something.
I believe the something was myself. I didn't know who I was or what I wanted and I was just always looking for that and my happiness from outside. When all the time it was sitting inside. Better late than never!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I believe the something was myself. I didn't know who I was or what I wanted and I was just always looking for that and my happiness from outside. When all the time it was sitting inside. Better late than never!
Ok dealing with some disappointment and hurt this morning.
I think last week I posted I thought CHL and I were being more respectful of one another.
I guess I really am blond and gullible.
Was he always sneaky and lying and I just didn't see it? Is that why he has affairs and can't manage a marriage?
I know as Sage pointed out to me people aren't all one way or the other. But I always thought of him as so honest and upstanding it hurts to find all of these things out about him.
He was in the house last week and picked up some bills and in my van and got his chair. Now the van is back next to the tree that is down and when I asked if he had looked at the tree he said no. When I mentioned the car insurance he said he had forgotten it.
Why lie? Why not just send me an e-mail if he doesn't want to talk and say, Oh by the way ran by the house and grabbed mail and my chair. I just don't understand the need to still sneak and lie to me.
I am not reacting and basically working on keeping calm. Mostly I think I am just disappointed in him.
Very soon my life will be totally my own to manage and he won't be able to affect me at all, and if I manage my feelings right, he can't affect me now. Only if I let it, so I am working to process it through.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Feeling much calmer but very tired. I did win though.
In the past that would have been a crazymaking episode!!!
Positive for today so far, I ran by the license branch before coming to work this morning and have my sticker for my van.
So maybe a sheltie or two and I will run by the house this evening to see how it is progressing.
Maybe visit with one of my neighbors if I see them out to get to know them a bit more.
Have my back hurting today from all the heavy tubs I moved last night. But feels good to have that stuff pretty much together and ready to catalog and price.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Slowly 
