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You said that you are curious about what would happen if you and CHL could meet NOW in your current states of being.

I asked this very question of CJ (this was between bombs 1 and 2...so the A was still going on). I'd done LOTS of work on myself (the sarcasm, controlling, perfectionism) and was pretty sure we would hit it off. I asked him...what if we'd stayed with our previous R's, then found ourselves single now....would he be attracted to me?

He said...I can't answer that, there's too much history here for me to look over. That was hard to hear.


You see I think CHL and I would hit it off as well, but CJ is right, too much history unless you are willing to put the past behind you and move forward!

Since CHL has J I don't believe he is ready or willing to put the past behind and move forward with me. So I guess that is just a wishful thought I had this morning.

Today is a thinking day but a good thinking day.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"