Hi PIB,

I do realize that it would have had to be something CHL wanted to do and decided to do. I am SOOOO much better at dropping ropes now days! It helps to visualize them as the hot embers that Sage posted to me about!

Because if we had tried to put us back together I would have wanted no doubts that it was ME he wanted to be with and not J.

But, no I'm not putting things on hold. I guess what I was trying to say is the person I am now I would like to meet CHL and see if we connected this time around. Does that make sense? I don't know how to explain what I am trying to say.

Not that it actually matters, the important thing is to get myself to the point that when those papers come, possibly this evening, I don't fall totally apart.

On the girlfriend thing my accountant friend and the friend I do dog stuff with don't either one have much spare time as they are both working two jobs.

But I am hoping to develope a friendship with the lady two houses down from me that is single and my vet and I are going to do lunch one Saturday and we e-mail one another, those are both new friendships I am working on.

Plus I do have some past friendships that I need to put some time into as well.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"