I love that you are seeing things that you hadn't seen before.
And accepting your learning curve as right for you.
I'm glad you aren't beating yourself up!
Great job!
As for getting past wanting CHL to come to give y'all a try again...knowing how far you have come and the changes you have made.
Well, unfotunately, that's something that he's got to be willing to try to do.
And there is nothing you can do to influence this.
On the other hand, you asked how you could get past the hope that he'd be willing to try again.
I'm not sure what to say here. I think hope is always a good thing. The only problem is when you put your life on hold because you have hope. I think that's what my mom means when she says "that hope is a da..able thing."
You have shown that you aren't putting your life on hold. You are doing new and exciting things. You ARE creating a beautiful joyful life for yourself.
Now, that you see how much you are doing and how far you have come, can you imagine how wonderful you'll be doing a year from now? Can you begin to envision that joyful life that you would like to live in? What will be your next step towards creating that life?
And my vote is for you to go ahead and buy that bedspread set. If you can afford it, make your dream come true!
