PIB you would have every reason to think I could be unstable. I have still recently felt those unstable feelings. I hate them and they seem to center around when I am most emotional each month.
But that isn't how I am feeling today. Just sad, very sad, but not crumbled inside.
My support wall, (friends ) are still standing.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
) are still standing. 
