I guess with the stress I'm feeling pretty down on myself today for not saving my marriage.

I let J win and I have beat her in the ring before. She sucks the pizazz and confidence right out of her dogs so that most of the time they perform like they have been beaten. She is a very rough trainer, lots of jerking and not a lot of positive reinforcement. It would take a tough dog to handle her training methods without being cowed.

You see I don't see D as tough enough to take her training methods. My thought is he is going to end up cowed just like her dogs. Why doesn't the thought of that make me happy after what he has put me through the past 2 and a half years? Instead I feel sadness for him because I still think he is lost and looking for someone else to make him happy and fulfilled feeling.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"