I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. Grief can look like depression, sweetie. Don't be too hard on yourself. I've worked in hospice for a good chunk of my life, and want to tell you one thing I learned along the way:
Grief looks different to every single person.
Let yourself feel the emotions, PIB. Your friend was important to you, and it's healthy AND normal to feel loss when someone is taken from you.
(((((PIB))))))
Bets
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
I feel much better today. Didn't work out with Husband this morning..but I think I'm still riding on the endorphins from yesterday.
Also, the service WILL be held...and that was part of my problem.
Her daughter is in charge of the service and the things I was hearing about her daughter was causing me to feel that not only was my friend gone..but she was being disrespected.