Ancient as a stone, strong as the sea

[nitaf]

I am so happy that you can put another feather in H's cap.

Nitaf

[psluke]

Hey PIB,

I just wanted to check direct rather than guess.

You weren't upset with me over my post about not being unstable were you?

I wasn't trying to say that you were implying that I was unstable.

I only mentioned I wasn't because of my past history on the bb.

Have a wonderful PIB pampering weekend!

[nikatnight]

PiB,

Thanks for stopping by my thread. That is good that your H answered your ?'s and did not get defensive.

Have a great weekend!

Nik

[psluke]

Hi PIB,

I figure you might not be interested in these since you do the BFL.

water bar bells

[Phoenix_In_Bloom]

Hiya Pam,

Thanks for the link! That was very thoughtful of you!

Husband and I are talking about doing the BFL food plan as well.

I'm getting really excited and hopeful!

Also, have requested the doc increase my thyroid meds...

So, hopefully, I'll see some results!

Hugs!

[psluke]

Hi PIB,

No weekend update? Wondering what all you did with your free time.

Did Monkey have a good time camping?

[Phoenix_In_Bloom]

Pam,

Thanks for asking!

I didn't feel very well yesterday again...so wasn't being very talkative.

But, I'm feeling much better today!

So, when Husband was out camping, I created a new character on EverQuest and got all obsessed and involved with that!

Had a great time!

And I really needed that time to myself.

On the other hand.

People are probably going to smack me with 2 x 4's.

You know how much I've struggled to have a good relationship with my mom. Well, she and I have become best friends.

So, I've been telling her about some of my struggles in my relationship with Husband.

Trying to get her advice, comfort, support. Whatever.

Well, yesterday on the phone, I was talking to her about my thyroid...and how I'd been doing research on the internet. And what I found out.

Her response...you are depressed not because of your thyroid, but because Husband went camping all weekend long and didn't tell you where he was going.

That upset you, we both know it. And any relationship where one person takes off like that is not a healthy relationship.

That hurt my heart.

Is she right?

Or is she just speaking from what she knows?

Husband and I have been making great progress.

And he told me 2 weeks in advance that he was going out and spending the night elsewhere.

I don't believe he's cheating on me.

I think he just needs some time to himself.

And he's been struggling to deal with the calendar. He hates the calendar, sees it as chains. I love the calendar, see it as a very neccessary part of family organization.

So, I understand Husband's need to just go and be himself.

Heck, that is what I was doing with my new EQ character.

And my mom's dismissal of my health issues as all in my head...sigh.

I'm not sure if y'all can understand where I am with this.

But basically, it is very frustrating to be doing everything right and still feel fatigued, not be able to lose weight, to START losing my hair again, and to know that there is no way I can get pregnant and keep the baby unless I get my thyroid leveled out.

(Hypothyroid, unless properly medicated will lead to miscarriage.)

Sigh.

I'm thinking I need to find a girlfriend.

Pam, I'm thinking the same for you.

How can we go about doing this? Is it like dating?

How do you find a best friend?

Hugs!

[psluke]

{{{{{{{PIB}}}}}}

No, you aren't wrong and I'll be back later! Girlfriend!! So glad you feel better today!!! Think positive thoughts.

A friend of mine says tell yourself: "I'm alert, I'm alive and I feel Great!

She always gets a smile out of me when she says it.

[Phoenix_In_Bloom]

Thanks Pam!

I like that... "I'm alert, I'm alive, and I feel great!"

Well, I was thinking people would smack me for telling my mom personal stuff about my relationship. And I wasn't sure, but I thought I might be doing black/white thinking again. That's a constant struggle for me!

I'm thinking I should probably not tell her anymore. But she's like a ferrett...if something IS wrong, she keeps asking questions till I tell her. And then she's all hurt if I don't tell her. And of course, if I say nothing is wrong at all, she keeps questioning until she finds SOMETHING wrong.

Of course, she has a lot going on in her life right now, a lot of stress...so she may not be so concerned with me at the moment...

So perhaps now is a good time to experiment with this?

Dunno.

Also, I've been complaining about everything again.

And I need to stop. It upsets Husband, doesn't make me feel any better.

It's a bad habit.

I think the most positive results I got with Husband was when every word that came out of my mouth was either factual or optimistic.

So, I've got some goals.

I've got a best friend from High School that I'm still close with. Perhaps I should just look at enhancing that friendship rather than trying to find a best friend.

So, that's goal number one. Focus on the friends I do have and try to increase the friendship.

Goal number 2. Focus on increasing the optimistic things I say. Decrease the complaints.

Goal number 3. Attend my doc appointment on wed. Explain to him what is going on and ask him to let me try some different thyroid meds.

Any feedback? Suggestions?

Hugs!

[psluke]

I think your goals sound very good!

Your mom I think is like mine in several ways. That doesn't mean we can't be their friends, just that we have to be aware of their shortcomings and our own.

I share some things with my mom but not the in depth details. I have a couple of friends that I do that with, but as a general rule it seems to work best with someone from the bb.

So I also e-mail Sage, Calystra, Zoo & Pattie some, plus chat on Yahoo with DBers. They just understand what I am trying to say, do and am going through better than my other friends.

So with my other friends I am putting the main focus on other areas of my life! Make sense?

BTW: I didn't see black and white thinking and I know for me when I don't feel well, my thinking is more negative and I am more emotional!

So today give PIB a break and start those positive thoughts working!