I didn't feel very well yesterday again...so wasn't being very talkative.
But, I'm feeling much better today!
So, when Husband was out camping, I created a new character on EverQuest and got all obsessed and involved with that!
Had a great time!
And I really needed that time to myself.
On the other hand.
People are probably going to smack me with 2 x 4's.
You know how much I've struggled to have a good relationship with my mom. Well, she and I have become best friends.
So, I've been telling her about some of my struggles in my relationship with Husband.
Trying to get her advice, comfort, support. Whatever.
Well, yesterday on the phone, I was talking to her about my thyroid...and how I'd been doing research on the internet. And what I found out.
Her response...you are depressed not because of your thyroid, but because Husband went camping all weekend long and didn't tell you where he was going.
That upset you, we both know it. And any relationship where one person takes off like that is not a healthy relationship.
That hurt my heart.
Is she right?
Or is she just speaking from what she knows?
Husband and I have been making great progress.
And he told me 2 weeks in advance that he was going out and spending the night elsewhere.
I don't believe he's cheating on me.
I think he just needs some time to himself.
And he's been struggling to deal with the calendar. He hates the calendar, sees it as chains. I love the calendar, see it as a very neccessary part of family organization.
So, I understand Husband's need to just go and be himself.
Heck, that is what I was doing with my new EQ character.
And my mom's dismissal of my health issues as all in my head...sigh.
I'm not sure if y'all can understand where I am with this.
But basically, it is very frustrating to be doing everything right and still feel fatigued, not be able to lose weight, to START losing my hair again, and to know that there is no way I can get pregnant and keep the baby unless I get my thyroid leveled out.
(Hypothyroid, unless properly medicated will lead to miscarriage.)
Sigh.
I'm thinking I need to find a girlfriend.
Pam, I'm thinking the same for you.
How can we go about doing this? Is it like dating?
