The thing is...

I want to feel indifference towards her and her intrusion.

Husband has already shown that he feels indifferent. If he didn't, he would have contacted her when we were separated.

But, instead of feeling indifferent...I feel inadequate. However that is spelled.

Which is ridiculous, I know.

I don't know who she is...all I have is some fantasy person in my mind who looks like her.

I have what he's told me about their relationship. The little I know based on my very few interactions with her.

She's just a stranger whom I've built up in my mind as this larger than life creature that I can't compete with.

Yet, I know that's not true.

Why would husband have married me if she were so wonderful?

Why would he have come back to me if I'm soo terrible?

I know, I know...black/white thinking again.

Thanks for listening.

Hugs all.

PIB