NOPkins, Journey, and Hairdog, Thanks for the help. NOPkins, not sure if I am ready to hop off and get some toys...I'll have to give that some thought! LOL - maybe I am more of a prude than I thought - maybe not...HUM....something to consider. I just wonder if he would think I'd really lost my mind.
Journey, my aunts, uncles, cousins called me Neicie as a child and they still do for the most part. It is a light hearted memory that always makes me smile. My cousin, David, in particular still calls me that. I don't think he ever calls me Denise!
I've wanted to go to counseling for a long time...I've just kept putting it off. Interestingly enough, the C. seems to think that Crohns is a result of stress and unresolved issues as a child. I did not impart that piece of information to DH though. I think that stress can aggravate the problem but I don't think it causes it!
I do think that DH would benefit from C. Like everyone, he has issues ... ie a mother who can be a PILL, a sister who died as a child that really effected him, and a feeling of not letting anyone close enough to hurt him ever. He feels that if one acknowledges that one has issues that that is enough. I am going to continue to go. I have my own issues and baggage. I am hoping that at some point he will go with me of his own volition.
Hairdog, I felt lighter when I came out of the office. It was a relief to talk to someone face to face who was there to help me and not judge me or my H. I have a best friend that I could tell anything to and yet I have not. That would be a major disloyalty to my H and while it would be nice to speak to her about it I will never do so. My H said yesterday, "so this C. knows everything. I don't like that. You know that I am a private person. But I know that this is really bothering you and I don't have the right to tell you not to seek help." H is even going to pay for it. Yay for him - more cake money for me.
I went to a gumpaste flower class today with an internationally known artist and made a beautiful fire lily. It was a happy day and I need that. He does gripe about the money I spend on it which I find annoying. I did tell him yesterday that I would rather ML with him than make any flower, cake, afghan, etc. but in lou of ML I would do flowers as a substitute!
We did ML this morning which was wonderful. We have not ML in a month. I have to go out of town overnight 3 times in the upcoming weeks for Work. I am going to ask H to join me for one of those nights. It would mean him taking a Friday off. I don't have to go far - it is just 90 miles away but it would be a fun trip for us. He can play golf or ride his Harley. Keep sending good vibes my way - I need them - I was just about to totally give up and crawl into myself and hide.
