Jennifer, there's too much history on other issues to go into here, but way back when before I heard of DB, I started a daily journal to track W's remarks. I did so because I thought I was going nuts about the things she said and her denials of those sentiments a few days later. Needless to say, I called her to task one time and she now realizes that I record our events and every time she goes off or gets into a fight with me--she referes to the journal. And to be honest, if she ever files for D (or I do) I have a pretty thorough documentation of the past 18 months--albeit my view of the world.
Right now, W is clearly agitated. Last night we sparred a bit on how to handle a sitch with S10 and this morning, I screwed up by not putting a meeting I had on our home calendar and creating a conflict for her). Becaue of out current state, it's hard to even address these simple matters amicably without an edge.
On top of this, according to W's sister, W was bad-mouthing members of her family last night at a bar celebrating the sister's birthday. SIL aksed me what was going on in light of recent events and I said I feel sorry for W and that if she wants an "amicable" split--she is the one who will have to leave and that I have no reservations about doing what i think is the "right" thing.
In any event, W came home last night about 1:15 a.m. (OM was probably unavailable for a later return) and she was mad as hell at me--whispering just loud enough for me to hear about 75 - 100 times (f*** s***head, f***ing a$$hole; stupid f***ing PoS; miserable PoS, etc). I pretended to be asleep and expected a more direct assault, but it never came. Perhaps she kept her drinking under control. At least there's some form of f***ing going on in our house between me and W! Pardon me if I offend anyone.
Fortunately, W took the girls to NYC today with neighbors and I had S10 for baseball. Tomorrow night ought to be a blast, everyone is going to her full family (and me) are going to her parents' house for SIL's birthday. Could be the Fourth of July!
