Now back to work: When she questioned your motives, did you validate? Did you tell her that you were following through now because you are ready? that you are ready for many other things in life? that now you see things more clearly than before, that you are making great changes in your life? that you love her?
I know, you're tired of hearing it. But one must see every opportunity to validate, do it, and even if it doesn't save your M, it will make your life easier to live in the long run.
Your post made me laugh (pictured the Holy Spirit working overtime, sweating in a cloud overhead, looking down at you and furiously busy coming to your aid, wood chips flying...).
