A wonderful morning in NYC. Apart from the usual police cruisers, this morning I was greeted at my office building by police dogs and SWAT team members with automatic weapons and machine guns. In addition to the usual sobering reflecitons, I was wondering whether I could post any of these guys outside my bedroom
Raindeer, I am not pursuing the legal route as much as I've been cornered into it and feel the one thing I have not tried is letting my W know that I will not trap her in an unwanted M--as she defines it. Moreover, my first goal remains to have a split separation where each of us takes turns outside of the house. If I can secure this, the legal issues will greatly diminish. Besides, my L is on vacation!
The most important consideration I have right now is how this fits in with God's plan for me. My Manhattan priest is on duty today and I intend to ask a number of questions about my next steps and their consistency with my new faith--aside from (if possible) faith, hope, and love. Thus far, God has stilled my heart and He remains my most important light in seeing me through the darkness.
To my happy surprise, W came home early last night and there were no fireworks. Perhaps OM was out of town (at the risk of getting a 2 x 4, this is one way that snooping helps in gauging my W: if OM is out of town, then her calmness is not unusual; if he is in town, no outburst from W is real progress).
We're heading into a three-week stretch where I may have little to no contact with W. We're taking turns on the shore with the kids starting Saturday and then I'm taking the kids on a one-week vacation on my own through PA, NY, and OH. Thereafter W starts work and the GOP convention commences, where I'll have corporate events to attend and may borrow a friends apartment in the City for a few days. Then school begins.
